April 5th, 2005

pro deo et patria

The pope is dead, His Holiness, born in Poland, christened as Karol Wojtyla. Died at the age of 84 years old. I believe no one can fill his shoes. God bless his successor. But my entry has nothing to do with this. There is something wrong with me.. there always has been.. but these days have been different. Im not that irritable anymore, still irritable, but lesser than before im afraid. I dont eat that much anymore, my meal per day average; 1.5. Whoa, and im not dieting. Theres this awkward feeling that i should, and I am, but I dont think so. When ate asks why, I just tell her Im too lazy to eat. Talk about being a bum. 2 weeks ago, I though graduation day would never come, well, of course it will. Such an ass. What a way to celebrate april fool's day, graduate from one of the best secondary schools in metro manila, or maybe in mandaluyong only. Sad to say, im proud of my school. Huh?! Well I am, but only such. Because every school has its flaws, and mine has. A lot. But what matters is, those 4 years made me what I am today. I like to think so. In those 4 years of being a bosconian, i learned how to use a coping saw, how to put your workpiece in a bench vise without breaking your finger, and how to mix polylite, hardener and dye without making too much of a commotion with its gawking but addicting smell. It explodes too. Best memory from first year? Many of course, but those that stuck itself most in my mind was those pranks classmates played on our god bless her..not! CAE teacher. Mrs. ADELAIDA CORDOVA. And of course, the incident in which a fluorescent bulb hit my classmate on the head when it fell because of a basketball thrown at it. Bwahahaha. Barbaric moron. That was only the beginning, i learned all those and a whole lot more in my freshman year alone. Oh, and i also learned that not passing all of your shop projects means a 75 for your card, if your teacher is 6 feet tall and you look like an ass like me. On my sophomore year, i definitely learned that my scoutmaster slash drafting instructor at the present back then[huh?!] was a complete ASSHOLE and JERK. 2nd year was the worst year of them all for me, mainly because of my classmates and that instructor. Imagine having to make a power supply for gameboys and battery-run electronics from a rusted piece of metal and a transformer that leaks. Stupid instructor never let me get my report card until enrollment day itself. Jackass. And to think that he would be my drafting instructor for the rest of my highschool life. Damn that. Best memory in 2nd year? Fieldtrip. Dolphins. Sea Lions. Cute trainer. LOL. My junior and senior years were definitely the best of them all. Id be blogging about them next, for the meantime, I would like to say this. I miss my school already, i was there this morning, mainly because i wanted to get my card, and my little brother took the entrance exam. I just caught myself reflecting and reminiscing, while staring at the vast quadrangle and portico. I just realized this. I spent the best years of my young life here. Pro deo et Patria. For God and Country. Whatever. This school already has a place in my heart.
Currently listening to: I'm Not Ok - My Chemical Romance
Currently reading: Alamat ng Gubat - Bob Ong
Currently feeling: InLOVE..
Posted by ziZou12 at 12:19 AM | stab me..

March 23rd, 2005

a question..

i want to beat someone to death..

i want that someone to experience pain..

i want his bones to shatter and break..

i want his muscles to twitch in agony..

i want to release this frustration..

i want to hold my emotions inside..

i want it to stop right at this very moment..

but man does not always get what he wants..

instead, he gets what is right for him..

eventhough oftentimes, what is right hurts..

i can never beat someone to death..

pain is temporary, pain makes a man stronger...

agony and suffering are always here to stay..

i can never pass this frustration to someone i dont know..

i never did hold this emotion, tears are still falling up to now..

i believe crying is a sign of weakness, and i am that..

the storm has stopped, but only because of the eye..

it shall strike again, more forceful than before..

why do i have to cry like this when i am assured of everything?

Posted by ziZou12 at 12:28 AM | stab me..

March 21st, 2005

gradball..kamo..

bago pumasok sa skul... wala lang.. entry muna..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

gradball pala namin kahapon.. hayyy...T_T

Posted by ziZou12 at 12:34 PM | stab me..

March 18th, 2005

all over again.. definitely..

im falling in love all over again..

with the same girl i fell in love with at the start of SY 2004 - 2005..

my happiness is beyond my being tired, sleepy and wasted..

dont you wish that every single day of your life you're like this..

without a care in the world, only wishing this day would never end..

sometimes i think im not worthy enough for her..but so what..

we love each other.. thats that..

im so thankful she's there for me everyday..

through my ups and downs..

through those times na kinocompare ako sa isang aso.. tulad kanina..

to the person i love the most..

charry.. i love you so much.. thanks for everything..

Currently listening to: Taking Back Sunday - this photograph is proof
Currently reading: pls lend me a book.. ill return it.. promise..
Currently watching: The Amazing Race 7
Currently feeling: feelings are beyond words
Posted by ziZou12 at 12:08 AM | 1 complained..

March 13th, 2005

sprite..

change is inevitable.. but there is a big question mark to that...

although it is a fact that change is the only thing that is constant in this world, and we must change and adapt in order to survive, but in some instances, the change we undergo do not fit our lifestyles, sure, who undergoes a perfect transition, but others, deep down inside, they know they werent the ones they changed into, like a caterpillar, changing into a pupa against its will..

ayoko nang palawakin pa to.. baka maymagreact pa kasi.. magpakatotoo na sana kayo..

Posted by ziZou12 at 06:30 PM | stab me..
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